My little mind wonders

This blog is usually for my art space but I'm not that active. Today, somehow I would like to let my mind speaks here. 


First of all, I'm never an expressive type of person. So when it comes to say 'I'm sorry', 'Thank you' or whichever that comes from my heart, I'll never hold my guts to say it out. Usually I write to myself or to that person via message/ net or even handwritten. I guess some people can see me as bitchy and arrogant in a way. You can say that I'm giving shitty attitude but I'm holding back at the same time. But seriously no one knows what I've been through because I haven't tell a soul. 


I'm crying from inside... 


I did not ask for this but I'm dealing with it...


I do not want to complain anymore...


I agree to what my friends say about me but deep inside I know it's not true...


I'm a flaw that what makes me humane...


I did what I can, only God knows...


I know I've tried even I know that possibilities aren't high at all but trying makes a difference...


So much more I wanted to SHOUT but it won't make any sense. Despite all these thoughts I'm still keeping myself positive. Thank God, call me crazy I think I felt your presence as I walked down the street. You sent me a shiver but it was a warm feeling. I smiled out of the sudden :)